Emotional Memory and Time Fading in Autism Spectrum Adults (Aspergers)

⚠️ Author’s Note / Disclaimer This article is not part of my field of studies or research. It emerged out of a simple discussion which lead to a literature review and this small summary. While I am not a medical expert, this summary has been compiled to the best of my ability. Though I aim for accuracy, there may be errors.

Note: There also exists an easier, more provocative article that transports the core message of this literature review.

Introduction

Do emotional wounds heal with time for everyone? In neurotypical individuals, the passage of time often softens the intensity of emotional memories – hence the saying “time heals all wounds.” Conflicts and distressing events usually lose some emotional charge as weeks, months, or years go by, allowing people to move on. However, many adults on the autism spectrum (especially those formerly diagnosed with Asperger’s syndrome) report a different experience: they feel that painful emotions and interpersonal conflicts do not fade naturally with time, but instead remain as fresh and intense as ever. This investigation explores the hypothesis that autistic individuals experience a kind of “emotional permanence”, where negative feelings and conflicts persist over time rather than diminishing. We will examine scientific research on memory and emotion in autism, neuroscientific findings on brain mechanisms (emotion processing, time perception), and first-person insights from the autistic community. We also highlight gaps between what science has studied and what autistic people describe in their lived experience.

• Emotional “Time Fading” vs. “Emotional Permanence”
• Autistic Adults’ Lived Experience of Persistent Emotions
• Cognitive and Neuroscientific Factors in Emotional Memory
• Conflict Resolution and the Challenge of “Letting Go”
• Gaps Between Research and Lived Experience
• Conclusion
• Sources

Emotional “Time Fading” vs. “Emotional Permanence”

In neurotypical emotional processing, strong feelings triggered by an event usually dampen over time. The brain gradually processes the memory, transferring it from an intense, reactive form into a more neutral narrative. For example, once an upsetting event is processed and stored in the hippocampus (the brain’s library of ordinary memories), it “fades away and feels more distant over time”[1]. In contrast, if a memory remains in a raw, unprocessed state (linked to the amygdala’s fight-or-flight alarm system), it stays as distressing as ever no matter how much time passes[1]. Autistic individuals often report the latter – their negative memories feel stuck. Even long after a conflict, thinking about it can bring back the same flood of anger, fear, or hurt as when it first happened.

Many on the spectrum describe this as being unable to “let go” or “move on.” For instance, one autistic commenter shared that they obsess over past negative events: “It’s not uncommon among autistic people. For me, I go into loops of enacting hypothetical extensions of past arguments, and then I get stuck…”[2]. Another individual on a forum wondered if holding grudges for years is an autism trait, noting “my longest grudge is around 10 years”[3]. These firsthand accounts illustrate the emotional permanence phenomenon: unresolved conflicts from years ago can still feel recent and emotionally raw. Attempts to simply ignore or silence the conflict often don’t work – the feelings remain highly salient in memory. In other words, “time heals” doesn’t seem to apply in the usual way for many autistic people.

To clarify the contrasts between neurotypical and autistic experiences, the table below highlights some key differences in emotional processing and conflict resolution:

Aspect of Emotional Processing	Neurotypical Individuals (Typical “Fading”)	Autistic Individuals (Possible “Permanence”)
Emotional Intensity Over Time	Fades: Emotional reactions to negative events tend to diminish with time, often becoming less acute as the memory ages (the event feels “in the past”)[1].	Persists: Negative emotions often remain strong or undiminished even long after the event; a past conflict can feel as emotionally charged as if it happened yesterday[1].
Rumination on Past Events	Limited: Most people eventually distract themselves or “move on,” with only occasional dwelling. Rumination on past hurts is usually transient, unless one has other conditions (e.g. depression).	Frequent: Prone to repetitive, prolonged rumination about past distress. Autistic individuals often “get stuck” replaying frustrating experiences or conflicts in their mind[4, 5], making it hard to forget them.
Grudge-Holding & Forgiveness	“Forgive and Forget”: With time and apologies, many can forgive others and let go of resentment. Intent and context are considered, and emotional resolve comes easier.	Longer Grudges: Many autistic people report holding grudges for years and difficulty forgiving. Apologies or excuses may not fully resolve the hurt. Notably, one study found autistic individuals often do not factor in intent when judging whether to forgive, focusing on the outcome of the transgression itself[6]. As a result, an offense (even if unintentional) may not be easily forgiven, prolonging the conflict internally.
Emotional Processing of Memories	Integrated: Emotional events typically get processed and integrated into one’s life story. Over time, the memory triggers less emotion – it gets filed away in the “background” (hippocampal storage) and feels more distant[1].	Unprocessed: Negative events may remain unprocessed, with the memory essentially “stuck” in a trauma-like state. The person can recall it vividly and the pain feels current, suggesting it’s stored in an amygdala-driven form that keeps triggering distress[1]. Without active resolution, the memory doesn’t lose its sting.
Perception of Time Passed	Intact: Neurotypicals generally sense the passage of time; the longer it’s been, the more “emotionally distant” an event feels. This temporal context helps reduce emotional intensity.	Impaired: Many autistic individuals experience “time blindness,” an impaired sense of time’s passage[7]. Something that happened months or years ago may feel like it happened recently because their internal clock or chronological context is fuzzy. This can contribute to feelings not dissipating – without a solid sense of “long ago,” the brain treats the memory like a present concern.
Physiological Stress Recovery	Faster: After a stressor or conflict, the body’s stress response subsides relatively quickly. Cortisol (the stress hormone) spikes then declines, which helps emotions settle. For example, a child might be very upset initially but calm down after a short time.	Slower: Research shows autistic individuals often have a prolonged stress response. In one study, children with autism had higher peak cortisol and a longer duration of cortisol elevation after a stressor compared to controls[8]. In a real-world scenario, a neurotypical child calmed down minutes after a scare, whereas an autistic child remained upset for the entire weekend[8]]. This prolonged physiological arousal mirrors the extended emotional turmoil, indicating it takes far longer for an autistic person’s body and mind to return to baseline after distress.
Brain Connectivity (Emotion Regulation)	Robust Regulation: The prefrontal cortex (rational brain) normally communicates effectively with the limbic system (emotional brain). This allows one to soothe emotions with reason – “It’s over, I’m safe now” – leading to down-regulation of emotional responses. fMRI studies show neurotypicals activate the prefrontal cortex strongly to modulate emotional reactions[9].	Weaker Regulation: Autistic brains show reduced connectivity between the frontal “rational” regions and the emotional centers. In an fMRI experiment, autistic adults had limited prefrontal activation and thus less modulation of limbic (amygdala) activity when trying to regulate emotions[9]. In effect, the “thinking brain” doesn’t calm the “emotional brain” as efficiently, so the person can remain in an emotional state for longer than usual[10].
Cognitive Flexibility	Flexible: Can usually shift attention and thoughts away from past issues and reframe thoughts (“it’s not a big deal now”). Cognitive flexibility helps one to stop dwelling on something that happened and focus on the present.	Inflexible: Autistic individuals often have perseverative cognition, a tendency to get cognitively “stuck” on a topic or feeling. They may have difficulty shifting gears once an emotion or conflict is in mind[10]. This inflexibility, a core feature of autism, means repetitive looping thoughts about the conflict can continue uncontrollably[5], preventing the natural fading-out of the emotion.

Table: Comparison of emotional memory processing and conflict resolution tendencies in neurotypical vs. autistic (Asperger’s) individuals. Autistic adults often experience sustained emotional intensity and prolonged conflict distress, whereas neurotypicals usually see a gradual reduction in emotional response over time.

Autistic Adults’ Lived Experience of Persistent Emotions

Autistic adults frequently share personal stories that reinforce the pattern shown above. Unresolved social conflicts, past humiliations, or emotional traumas may feel perpetually “open wound.” For example, an adult on the spectrum might still feel angry about a childhood bullying incident as intensely as ever, even decades later, unless it has been actively resolved. On community forums like Wrong Planet or Reddit (r/aspergers, r/autism), it’s common to find threads where people ask if others also relive past emotional pain. The consensus is usually “yes, you’re not alone.” One Reddit user asked if obsessing over bad things from the past is an autism trait, and numerous autistic respondents agreed it happens often. As one described, they will replay an old argument over and over, imagining different endings, and cannot stop the loop[2]. Another individual on the spectrum admitted that years after a falling-out with a friend, they still felt the same hurt and anger, despite knowing rationally that “it’s old history.”

Crucially, ignoring the issue does not make it go away for autistic people. In neurotypical culture, there’s an idea that if you “don’t feed” a conflict attention, it will eventually die down. But autistic individuals often find that silence or avoidance just means the issue lives on internally. The conflict may be outwardly dormant, yet inside the autistic person’s mind it is as if the conflict is ongoing. This can lead to ongoing stress – the body remains keyed up as though waiting for the other shoe to drop. As one autism advocate put it, “Something that may seem small to you could be experienced as traumatic for an autistic person. And if it isn’t processed, it’s like they’re stuck in that moment.” This aligns with the concept from trauma research that unprocessed memories stay fresh. In a blog on autism and trauma, clinicians note that unprocessed traumatic memories (stored via the amygdala) “still feel as distressing, no matter how much time has passed,” whereas processed memories (stored via the hippocampus) gradually lose their emotional sting[1]. Many autistic people, due to various factors we discuss next, struggle to fully process emotional events, leaving many experiences in that raw and “ever-present” state.

It’s important to note that not every single autistic person has this issue to the same degree – there is wide individual variability. Some may only have mild difficulty letting go, while others experience extreme emotional permanence. Co-occurring conditions (like anxiety, PTSD, or OCD) can exacerbate it. Nevertheless, the pattern of “emotions that don’t naturally fade” is echoed so frequently in the community that it is recognized as a common autistic experience. Autistic author Maia Szalavitz has referred to this as the “memory that time can’t erase” – describing how her autistic friends remember emotional details from long ago with striking clarity, often carrying the pain as if no time had passed at all.

Cognitive and Neuroscientific Factors in Emotional Memory

Why might autistic brains hold onto emotional memories so tenaciously? Research points to several cognitive and neurological differences that could underlie this phenomenon:

• Memory Detail and Sensory Intensity: Autistic people often have excellent long-term memory for details, especially sensory details. Studies have found that adults with Asperger’s tend to recall past events with unusually rich detail, possibly due to “hyperperception” – heightened attention to sensory aspects of experiences[11]. While memories fade at a similar rate in autistic vs. neurotypical groups in some studies, the initial encoding in autism may be much stronger or more vivid[11]. Thus, an emotionally charged incident might be remembered with crystal clarity years later, including all the sensations and emotions, making it feel very present. This rich recall can contribute to re-experiencing the emotion when the memory comes up. In autistic adults’ autobiographical writings, many note they can “replay” emotional events in their mind like a film, with all details intact, which naturally keeps the emotions fresh.
• Emotion Regulation Differences: Neurologically, autism is associated with atypical emotion regulation mechanisms. Brain imaging studies show that when autistic individuals try to manage their emotions, they exhibit less activation in the prefrontal cortex (the area responsible for reasoning, impulse control, and reappraisal) and consequently less dampening of activity in emotion-generating regions like the amygdala[9]. In neurotypicals, the prefrontal cortex can effectively “talk down” the amygdala – “Calm down, it’s over” – but in autism this top-down control is weaker. As a result, once upset, an autistic person’s brain may remain in an emotional, fight-or-flight state for a prolonged period[10]. One neuroimaging study (John A. Richey et al. 2015) had participants try to increase or decrease their emotional responses to stimuli; the autistic group showed significantly less prefrontal modulation and more persistent limbic activation than controls[9]. This aligns with everyday reports: autistic people often say “I know logically it’s fine now, but I can’t feel that it’s fine” – their rational mind cannot easily bring the emotions back to baseline. Over time, this could lead to emotional memories not “cooling off” as they normally would.
• Prolonged Physiological Arousal: Hand-in-hand with brain differences, autistic individuals can have a prolonged biochemical response to stress. When a person experiences conflict or fear, the body releases stress hormones like cortisol. In neurotypicals, cortisol typically peaks and then subsides, which helps the person recover emotionally. Research indicates that children on the autism spectrum often show higher and more sustained cortisol responses to stressors than neurotypical children[8]. One study found that after a stressful event, autistic kids’ cortisol levels stayed elevated much longer, indicating slower recovery[8]. Autistic adults anecdotally report similar patterns – for instance, after a heated argument, they might feel on-edge or “in fight-or-flight mode” for hours or days, whereas a neurotypical might calm down within minutes or an hour. This sustained arousal can reinforce the memory’s emotional impact (the brain encodes it as a serious threat) and also means that thinking about the event later might easily rekindle that physiological stress state. In essence, the body doesn’t “let go” of the incident, underlining the sense that time hasn’t healed it.
• Repetitive Thinking and Rumination: A well-documented cognitive pattern in autism is perseveration – repeating or fixating on thoughts beyond what is typical. In the emotional domain, this often manifests as rumination. Rumination means continuously thinking about the same negative feelings or past events, and it is known to prolong and intensify emotional distress. Peer-reviewed studies confirm that autistic individuals tend to ruminate more than neurotypicals. For example, adolescents with ASD report significantly more anger-focused rumination on average than their typical peers[4]. Higher autism symptom severity is correlated with more intense rumination as well[4]. Rumination is essentially the opposite of “letting something go.” Instead of the memory fading, the person keeps it alive by revisiting it repeatedly (often unwillingly). Over time, rumination can turn an incident into a well-worn groove in the mind – each recollection feeling as vivid as the last. Autistic people might replay an upsetting social blunder or argument hundreds of times in their head, dissecting what went wrong. As one clinician explains, “Repetitive thoughts and dwelling on negative incidents can make a person become ‘stuck’. For example, [they may] have difficulty getting past being angry or scared… going over previous interactions in the mind long after they happened”[5]. This kind of perseverative looping is much more common in autism[10], and it naturally contributes to emotional memories staying strong. Instead of a memory gradually decaying, rumination refreshes it continually.
• Rigidity and Need for Closure: Autistic individuals often have a strong need for closure and resolution. Open-ended ambiguity – such as an unresolved conflict – can be extremely discomforting. If a conflict with someone is “swept under the rug” rather than explicitly resolved, an autistic person may not be able to simply move on. The lack of closure keeps the issue alive in their mind. Psychology researchers note that autism is associated with rigid thinking and difficulty updating one’s perspective[12]. If an autistic person expected a certain outcome or moral resolution that didn’t happen, they might keep mentally replaying the scenario seeking a sense of justice or conclusion. This rigidity can be misinterpreted by others as stubbornly holding a grudge, but often it reflects an inner difficulty in emotionally reconciling an unresolved situation[12]. Additionally, challenges in perspective-taking (a facet of theory of mind) can make conflict resolution tougher. Autistic people may struggle to interpret the motives or remorse of the other party, which can impede forgiveness. A study on forgiveness in autism found that autistic individuals, regardless of age, were less swayed by someone’s intent or apologies – if harm was done, it weighed heavily[6]. This means that even if the offender didn’t mean it, the autistic person might feel the hurt just as intensely, making it hard to emotionally release the grudge. All these cognitive factors (closure needs, black-and-white sense of justice, theory-of-mind differences) create a scenario where conflicts linger emotionally for autistics more than they might for others.
• Time Perception (“Temporal Context”): Interestingly, differences in time perception may also play a role. Autistic adults sometimes describe experiencing time in a non-linear way. Some report that distant memories feel as if they happened recently, anecdotally linking this to poor internal time tracking. The concept of time blindness, often discussed in ADHD and also seen in ASD, is the “inability to sense the passage of time accurately.” People with time blindness struggle to gauge how long ago events occurred or how long things take[7]. If an autistic person has difficulty feeling whether something happened long ago vs recently, their brain might not downregulate the associated emotions appropriately. Neurotypicals usually get a sense of temporal distance (“That was ages ago”) which can diminish the immediacy of the emotion. In autism, if an event from five years ago still feels “present” in an indistinct timeline, the emotional brain might treat it with the same intensity as an ongoing issue. This lack of intuitive time context can contribute to the persistence of emotional pain. While research on time perception in autism shows mixed results, many studies find impairments in timing and temporal processing[13]. Autistic individuals often rely on external cues (calendars, routines) to manage time because their internal clock is less reliable. Without that internal clock to say “it’s been a while, this is old,” emotional incidents don’t get the normal fading signal.

Neuroscience is only beginning to unravel how these pieces fit together. The amygdala (emotional memory hub) is often hyperactive in autism, and the medial prefrontal cortex (involved in integrating and contextualizing memories) may be underactive[9,10]. Differences in connectivity between brain regions likely cause autistic individuals to encode and retain memories differently. One theory suggests that because autistic perception tends to focus on detail and literal information, the contextual tagging of time and emotional gist may be weaker – so a memory doesn’t “age” the same way in the mind. Instead, it’s stored with such detail that recalling it is like reliving it, not just remembering about it. Neurobiologically, this could correspond to memory traces that remain in a more limbic-dominant form rather than being fully consolidated into cortical (narrative) memory. While more research is needed, it’s clear that autistic brains handle emotional information distinctly, which can result in the subjective experience that emotional distress is permanent or frozen in time.

Conflict Resolution and the Challenge of “Letting Go”

Interpersonal conflict is a major trigger for the differences in emotional time fading. Autistic adults often report that when they have a fight or falling-out, it weighs on them heavily and continuously. Attempts by others to simply “let bygones be bygones” may not succeed in alleviating the autistic person’s distress. As discussed, forgiveness can be more complex for those on the spectrum. Research on children and adults with autism suggests they may follow different patterns in blame and forgiveness. For example, autistic children in one study showed less change in forgiveness judgments based on whether an offense was intentional or accidental, hinting that they find it harder to resolve anger when someone caused harm, period[6]. If the typical route to letting go of a conflict is empathizing with the offender’s intentions (“they didn’t mean it”) or accepting an apology, those routes may be less accessible, leaving the conflict emotionally unresolved.

Moreover, many autistic individuals have endured frequent social traumas (bullying, rejection, misunderstandings) throughout life. Each new conflict can tap into a backlog of emotional wounds that never fully healed. One therapist explains that conflict can be more triggering for autistics because it adds to an accumulation of past hurts that are all still raw[12]. What looks like an “over-reaction” to a minor issue might actually be that “everything adds up together” over time[1]. In practical terms, an autistic person might react intensely because they are also feeling the echoes of many earlier conflicts that never faded. This accumulation effect is supported by the idea that chronic stress without processing leads to burnout[1]. Each unresolved conflict remains an open loop in the autistic individual’s emotional world.

Attempts to resolve conflicts by ignoring them tend to fail for autistic people. In fact, being forced to drop an issue without closure can make it worse. The unresolved feelings often fester internally, sometimes leading to mental health struggles. Autistic adults might develop anxiety or depression related to ruminating on past conflicts (“What did I do wrong? Why won’t they understand me?”). Clinicians have observed that without guidance, autistic youth who experience trauma or conflict may be misunderstood and even punished for their lingering distress, rather than helped to process it[1]. This can compound the problem – adding new trauma on top of old.

On the other hand, when conflicts are explicitly addressed, autistic individuals can sometimes release the issue. Many on the spectrum appreciate honest, direct communication to resolve conflicts. Once they feel “heard and understood,” and when a clear conclusion is reached (e.g., both parties explicitly forgive each other or agree on a solution), they might finally be able to move on emotionally. The challenge is that neurotypical peers or family may not realize how important this is. A neurotypical partner might think, “We apologized and moved forward; why are you still upset months later?” – not realizing that for their autistic loved one, the emotional closure never truly happened.

In summary, conflict resolution often requires more deliberate effort for autistic adults. Strategies like open dialogue, written communication to hash out feelings, involving a mediator or therapist, and learning cognitive techniques to reframe thoughts can all help process the conflict so it doesn’t remain an open wound. There is growing interest in therapies tailored for autistic people focusing on interpersonal trauma and emotion processing[14]. These aim to bridge the gap: taking what we know about autistic cognition (need for clarity, difficulty generalizing, etc.) and applying conflict resolution frameworks that make sense to them. For instance, explicitly teaching someone with autism how to forgive (through logic-based approaches or visualizing the release of anger) might be beneficial, given that forgiveness may not come intuitively. The goal is to prevent the pattern of emotional permanence by actively converting “amygdala memories” into “hippocampal memories.” This could involve therapy techniques similar to PTSD treatment – revisiting the memory in a safe context and cognitively reappraising it until it loses its power. While still an emerging field, some clinicians and autistic self-advocates emphasize that recognizing this difference is the first step: both autistics and their loved ones should understand that no, time alone may not heal this, but with conscious processing and support, healing is possible.

Gaps Between Research and Lived Experience

There is a noticeable gap between scientific literature and the autistic community’s reports on this topic. The hypothesis that autistic individuals lack a “time-fading” effect for emotional memories is widely supported anecdotally, but direct scientific studies on it are limited. Much of the research we cited comes from related areas (rumination, stress response, memory for details, emotion regulation in autism) rather than studies explicitly measuring emotional intensity over time. For example, we have robust evidence that anger rumination is elevated in autism[4] and that autistic people show emotion regulation differences in fMRI[9]. We also have qualitative research hinting at differences in forgiveness or conflict interpretation[12, 6]. However, no longitudinal study to date has specifically tracked how an autistic person’s rating of emotional pain from a specific event changes (or doesn’t change) over the years compared to a neurotypical control.

The lived experience suggests that emotional permanence is very real and impactful. Autistic adults talk about it frequently in blogs and support groups – sometimes using terms like “feeling emotionally stuck in time” or describing their memory as “DVDs of my life that never stop replaying.” Some autistic writers have even proposed that this be recognized as an autism trait in diagnostic discussions, as it affects relationships and well-being significantly. Despite this, the academic literature has only sparsely addressed it. One reason might be that it overlaps with multiple domains (memory, emotion, trauma, etc.), making it hard to isolate in an experiment. Another reason is the historical focus in autism research on social skills and cognitive traits, possibly overlooking internal emotional experiences.

This gap means that autistic voices are a crucial source of insight. They highlight issues that scientists may not have thought to measure. For instance, an autistic adult might say, “I still feel upset about a fight from 10 years ago as if it just happened,” which is a clear description of lacking time-based fading. Researchers could translate that into a study (e.g., comparing intensity of old memories between groups), but such a study is rare. The community also points out nuances: some autistics mention it’s not all emotions that persist, but specifically negative social emotions (like shame, anger, grief) that linger, whereas positive memories sometimes do fade (or conversely, some report happy memories fade slower too, which could be another interesting difference). These lived details are not yet well-captured by science.

Additionally, many autistic adults note that conventional wisdom for coping (“just give it time,” “don’t dwell on it”) doesn’t work for them, yet mental health professionals may not be aware of that. This can lead to frustration in therapy until the issue is recognized and alternative strategies (like those tailored to neurodivergent thinking) are implemented. It underscores the need for more research bridging the gap: examining emotional memory processes in autistic populations in a way that honors what individuals report about themselves. Such research could validate the community’s experiences and lead to better supports – for example, interventions to help “update” emotional memories or techniques to simulate the fading effect (perhaps via visual timelines, narrative therapy, etc.).

In summary, the lived experiences of autistic adults suggest emotional permanence is a real and significant aspect of autism for many, even if it’s not formally described in diagnostic manuals. Scientific research provides pieces of the puzzle (like high rumination, slower stress recovery, neural connectivity differences) that support why this might happen, but it has yet to directly confirm the phenomenon in controlled studies. Bridging this gap is an important future direction. A better scientific understanding could lead to greater empathy from others (“why can’t you just get over it?” would be replaced by understanding that the autistic brain literally works differently) and more effective coping strategies for autistic individuals to find peace with their past.

Conclusion

Adults on the autism spectrum – particularly those with Asperger’s profiles – often experience emotional memories in a way that defies the typical “time heals” pattern. For them, emotional distress and conflicts do not automatically diminish just because time passes. Instead, these feelings can remain potent and present, a phenomenon we’ve described as emotional permanence. This report examined evidence for this hypothesis from multiple angles. Community anecdotes and clinical observations vividly illustrate the issue: unresolved conflicts from long ago still hurt as if fresh, and ignoring a problem often simply internalizes it. Scientific findings, while not yet directly targeting “time-fading,” lend support through related concepts – showing that autistic individuals have a propensity for perseverative thought[4], atypical memory processing, prolonged stress responses[8], and differences in brain connectivity that could leave emotions less regulated and more “stuck”[9,10].

Importantly, there is a dynamic interplay between neurology and lived experience here. An autistic person’s brain may encode a conflict with intense detail and keep the emotional alarm active. Because social resolution is challenging and time perception may be blurred, the usual avenues for relief are closed off – leading to a cycle where the memory stays sharp and painful. This can affect relationships (others may not understand why the autistic individual can’t just let it go) and mental health (chronic simmering stress). By recognizing this pattern, both autistic people and those around them can approach conflicts and emotions with better strategies. Autistic individuals aren’t choosing to hold on to pain; often, their brains are wired to hold on to detail and feeling, and they require conscious processing to find closure.

Finally, while current research validates some contributing factors, more targeted studies are needed to fully confirm and understand the “no time-fading” effect. Listening to autistic voices will be key in guiding these investigations. In the meantime, acknowledging the reality of persistent emotional memory in autism can improve support: for example, therapy can focus on active conflict resolution and cognitive techniques to manually create the distance that time fails to provide. As one autism self-advocate aptly said, “Time may not heal all wounds for us, but understanding and support can.” By combining scientific insight with empathy for the lived experience, we can better address the emotional needs of autistic adults who carry their past with them.

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